Welcome Mystical,
Yours was much more than an introduction, so I decided to move your posting here instead, and treat it with some urgency.
Firstly you are not going crazy. Surely this is good news?
Secondly I would warn you NOT to under any condition continue to attempt to open your third eye at this point in time using any method including crystals, as the consequences of you doing so could be dangerous to your health and safety.
I do not want to frighten you even more, but at the same time I would be neglecting my responsibilities to allow or actually encourage you to try this.
Please take my word for it that you will not get the answers which you are seeking that way, but that you will instead open yourself up to potential dangers which you could well do without on top of everything else.
Notice that his warning applies to you whether or not you are also a medium and are sensing unhappy spirits in your vicinity, as well as being highly empathic. To be an empath means that you are acutely sensitive to the mainly negative emotions of other people around you, whether or not they are currently using a physical body.
At this stage not being a medium myself and in the absence of any solid evidence to the contrary, I am temporarily eliminating the possibility of this sadness and depression having come from spirits, and will from now on until any further evidence appears confine any advice to you to how to deal with the negative emotions of living people.
Being an empath does have its advantages when you want to psychically help or counsel people, but after the session is over you need to be able to close down your personal energy field (aura) around you as it normally acts as a protective blanket or cocoon, keeping the emotions of negative strangers from invading your energy space.
If you do not do this then you can easily get confused about which emotions belong to you, and which belong to someone else. There is a very good chance from what you have told me that most if not all of the sadness and darkness and heaviness you are feeling does not belong to you, but instead belongs to and comes from the auras of one or more people with whom you have had close energy contact, over the last few weeks, months or years.
Unfortunately these negative feelings can accumulate over time, so the more negative people you are close to in a given period, the more their sadness, darkness and feelings of hopelessness and despair will build up in your aura.
Now I also need to tell you right from the start that while you can choose not to use your empathic abilities to help others psychically and spiritually (it must be your conscious decision) you cannot NOT be an empath. In other words you can choose whether or not to use these abilities for the right reasons, but you will always have them during the rest of this lifetime. So whether or not you decide to use these abilities in the loving service of humanity, you need to gain much more control over when your aura is open for business, and when you need to shut or close it down in order to allow yourself to get on with the rest of your life without having the extra burden of other people's feelings weighing you down.
The first thing to do is for you to try as much as it is humanly possible to reduce the number of overly negative people with whom you come in contact on a regular basis. This can be quite a challenge especially if these people are members of your own family or work colleagues of yours. Try to do your best in avoiding very negative people for the moment. Later when you are stronger you will be able to mix with them with no problems, but at this early stage you are still extremely vulnerable to being drowned by this sea of negativity.
This does NOT mean that you should also shut yourself off from everyone else who is not overly negative and who loves and cares about you, and for you to become some sort of social hermit. You need their more positive energies to help balance out or neutralize the negative energies which surround you. It is very important that you do not because you are frightened shut yourself off from a large part of the answer to your problem.
There are two or three if you want to be technical main methods which you will need to fairly quickly learn, if you are going to give yourself the best possible chance of turning this around in your favour, sooner rather than later.
1. PROTECTION
2. GROUNDING AND CENTERING.
For maximum effect all of these methods should be done at the same time as each other, but for the moment you need some psychic first aid which PROTECTION methods can give you. These methods usually involve you imagining or visualizing yourself being surrounded and cocooned in a warm and healing white light, or by something else which gives you a similar feeling of being protected. For example a white light layer or bubble, a cocoon and protective coat or for some more religious people God or his or her angel (s) watching over you.
Your aura is like a layer of coloured lights which entirely surrounds you, but white is the purest mixture of all of these. Some people will be able to visualize tiny openings or tears or other damage in the outline of their aura caused by these negative energies from other people, but you do not have to be able to do this to have the protection work. If you are not good at visualization, imagine the feeling of a protective coat being put on instead of trying to force yourself to see it. Do whatever feels more natural and comfortable for you. This is what is most likely to work. Do not listen to any person who tells you that their method is the only method which you must use, and because it works for them, it must equally work for everyone else. Listen to your instincts, instead of to self appointed experts. Visualizing golden light instead of white is one alternative which works better for some people than for others.
Experiment with the different colours of the visible spectrum (ROYGBIV)
Red
Orange
Yellow
Green
Blue
Indigo
Violet
On the following web page is one suggested technique which you can try as your first method for protecting yourself and strengthening your aura against all negativity from outside. Please adapt it to your own situation and personality, and practise it for a maximum of 15 consecutive minutes for at least the next 30 days. Start at 5 minutes, then gradually work up to the full 15 minutes. Also try doing this when you have to mix with crowds of other people outside of your home, or any overly negative family members.
At the end of this period or if you are experiencing any difficulties using it or have other relevant questions, then return to this thread to provide feedback. It is easier for me to tell you not to worry yourself as much than it is for you to be the person who has to do it, but do your best in the meantime. By the end of the 30 day period I really hope that you will be feeling much better and more emotionally stable as a result. Stay with techniques which are as simple as possible. The more complicated a technique is, the more likely you are to prematurely give up on using it.
"Spiritual Protection Techniques"
White Light Protection
http://www.wingsforthespirit.com/spirit ... niques.htm
Loving regards,
EoT :smt059