Why is my mind so cruel?

[Stephys_cool]

Meditation.
Sensitive to every vibration and thought and action
I have gained a privilege to be able to use many psychic abilities...
but why all of a sudden do I believe I've been doing it all wrong?
Why am I thinking so negatively about it all...
Why do I believe I've been playing mischievously and incorrectly?
Why do I hate myself... and why do I wish I didn't get answers to everything... why do I punished myself for knowing too much, when that's all I wanted all along back when I knew too little...
does this make sense?
Have you been there?
Am I the bad person I make myself out to be?....
I feel like a cheating lil B. or something...
:(

[spiritalk]

There are just so many vibrations of growth around you.  We all go through stages of life where self absorbed thinking is the order of the day.  Then we know how much other people mean in their presence in our lives.  You are growing.

[DragonKnight]

your energy is not manifest just, visual

[Stephys_cool]

yeah ~ I've realized that at times.
thanks for the responses guys