Dear Patricia, :)
Firstly with reference to how I am myself going health wise, all I can say is that I could be better, but then again I could be equally far worse than I am now.
How is that for a cryptic answer, if ever you heard one? :smt005
Pardon my noticing but you do seem to be far too too focused for your own good upon what is the "proper" way of meditating, whether marketing is a "good" choice" or whether you are still going down the "right" path for you.
But please consider for the moment that these words are highly subjective labels which you have for reasons only known to yourself placed upon certain events in your life, rather than them being absolute fact. It all depends exactly what you mean under your own terms of reference as to precisely what these words or labels mean to you, and not necessarily to someone else.
When you say that you are not yet meditating properly, do you mean that you are not meditating as well as a person who has already been doing it for the last 30 years, or do you mean that you do not meditate in quite the same way as someone else does who you look to as an example of how good you need to be at meditation to make it worth doing?
And when you ask if the new marketing course which begins around September is the right one for you, do you mean to imply that every other marketing or non marketing course is the wrong one? Surely the right course for you could be the wrong one for someone else, and the same thing but the other way around?
And what is the right path for you? Do you mean the one which if you will only follow it almost guarantees your success? And once again do you believe that there is only one right path for you, that all other paths would be wrong, and that unless you are accepted into or choose to apply for that new marketing course around September this year, that the rest of your life from now on is going to automatically be a total waste of your time and efforts?
Now you may feel on reading the above that I am picking on or unfairly criticizing you for your use of the English language, and that the exact words you use when you write or speak are of no real importance with regards to me being able to fairly accurately read your personality type.
But it is my belief that the language which we each use reveals much more about the way we think about or view or life as a whole, and your highly performance based labels which you seem to place on almost everything you ever try doing, are actually a much more significant sign than the one which informed you that the marketing courses were about to be restructured.
Based upon what I was seeing, hearing and feeling when I read your request but this time between the lines, with due respect you are so performance and am I good enough or smart enough or pretty enough driven, that you are making a rod for your own back so to speak.
You seem to think that someone up or out there is keeping a written record of only your weaknesses and failures, and that he or she gets great delight when they can put down yet another black cross beside your name.
My friend you have what has been called by psychologists, psychiatrists and the media a TYPE 1 PERSONALITY.
Everything in your life seems to me to be measured or assessed according to a rigid set of criteria which you have established so that presumably other people might find you more acceptable and think of you as a successful person.
You appear to always value the opinions of people outside of yourself to your own, as if they will always know better what is in your best interests.
And you are probably without realizing it, doing the same thing when it comes to looking for my stamp of approval through your reading.
Basically if I feel that the course restructuring was a sign that you should not go ahead any way with doing the course then am I right that you would throw it just because I said so?
Or if I told you that through your reading I felt that marketing was not on your life path, would you then give up the whole idea of furthering your education, and simply finish your other course and mark time until your next incarnation comes around?
If you see everything you ever try in this life as a one off opportunity and an all or now or nothing test that if you do not come up to your own unrealistically high expectations of performance will necessarily mean that you are a failure as a person, then I predict that you are going to keep your doctor very busy and rich when your body begins to almost inevitably show the effects of the undue amounts of extra stress you are placing upon yourself to consistently perform at a 110% level.
Each of our bodies has a point of weaknesses. Just as a chain is only as strong as its weakest link, our animal body is only as strong as its point or points of weakness. Type I personalities I believe are particularly prone to high blood pressure, and cardiovascular disease, so if you also show many of the risk factors for being a high blood pressure heart trouble candidate, then it might be wise to have a thorough examination especially in that area by a qualified doctor as a sensible precaution only.
But it does not follow that just because your personality is type one that you must experience problems in this area. It is simply that statistical evidence based upon a large sample of the population suggests that this is the case in more people than would normally be expected by chance,.
I do not want you to get the mistaken idea that I can psychically detect that you have any medical condition, including with your heart. You are putting enough emphasis on whether and how well you are doing compared to everyone else andplacing more than enough stress on yourself already, without in addition using my reading to cause yourself to panic about possible serious health problems which I never detected or diagnosed, largely because I am not a qualified medico and it would be illegal and unethical to make myself seem to be someone whom I am not.
There is also something called "putting all your eggs in one basket". You are I feel placing all your hopes for future career success and a life which is still worth living on whether you get into this course in around September. You are placing all your fragile emotional eggs and feelings of self worth in this one, isolated marketing course basket, as if this will be a life or death decision?
So as you can plainly see as both your reader and I hope that you will still think of me as your friend after this, I am unwilling to be lead into playing your game where you might see my inner guidance as being the ultimate authority outside of yourself, when it comes to deciding what course if any course at all is the proper, good or right path or option for you.
But I do predict that during the next six months or so that unless you are able and willing to begin becoming more aware of and work upon getting a greater degree of control over your personality type 1 tendencies or ways of putting performance labels on everything which you do, that your health and peace of mind could be in trouble over the medium to longer term.
And get your health checked out by your family doctor just in case. Long term unemployment is one of the biggest risk factors of all when it comes to a whole host of health problems (some serious, some usually not so serious), so the general idea is that if you can only with the help of your doctor detect developing but still hidden problems early on instead of later, that you will then have a much better chance of getting a 100% cure rate.
Hoping that I have not unintentionally offended you by my observations and impressions, and that you will accept this reading in the true spirit of love and helping each other with which I now give it to you as a gift of healing.
Are we still friends?
eye_of_tiger
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