Dear Adrianna,
Hope everything is going well at the home front and your son is settling in well.
Things are slowly but surely getting better at home, and we were already warned that there would be teething problems with helping our son to settle into his new home. They were right, but as with all things in this life these temporary problems of him as well as both his parents adjusting to an entirely new and different way of relating to each other will also eventually pass.
What you refer to as your ranting and raving unknowingly on your part is an excellent basis for a reading. As soon as I began to read what you have written in your response, the messages and insights started to come through me without the need for me to consult the Tarot or use basic numerology with the intention to help you with changing your career. To be honest they came through so thick and fast that I was having a difficult time keeping up with them and typing them into my web browser. So what follows is the best which I feel I can do in attempting to communicate even a small fraction of what information flowed through me on your behalf.
The main theme or lesson of this reading is the power of our beliefs about ourselves, and how these largely unconscious beliefs affect our relationships with other people in our daily lives. Affect our relationships with other significant people in our lives, in both positive and more negative ways. This includes your relationships with your family, friends, work colleagues, prospective future love partners and virtually anyone else whom you interact with on a fairly regular basis.
Basically your reading is saying that you are consciously doing everything right and have not consciously failed to do anything which you should have done. It is felt that many of your relationship problems with men and with this "difficult" person you work with are coming from your unconscious beliefs about yourself, mainly the negative ones.
The purpose of mentioning this is not to make you beat up on yourself for not having recognized that this was happening.
Unconscious means that you are consciously unaware of such things, and therefore by definition to a large degree your unconscious beliefs about yourself are beyond your conscious control. We are mercifully only responsible for what we are consciously aware of, and for those things which have conscious control over.
You are asked to examine your beliefs about yourself, but in order to do that with you not being a psychologist or other professional who has the knowledge and skills to be able to probe the depths of your unconscious, you and I must instead use the visible effects of those beliefs as a guide.
Now the fact that you are especially prone to accidents probably is a visible outward sign that you may believe deep down that you are awkward or clumsy or unworthy of having a life where things do not constantly go wrong.
This might sound to be highly illogical nonsense, but we experience our lives mainly according to these beliefs, instead of what is real or the truth. In a strange sort of way your most regularly and deeply held unconscious thoughts about yourself can quickly become your reality or truth. If you believe the above, that is that you are clumsy, awkward, unworthy, unlovable, everyone else does not like you etc., then even though none of this is so, your experiences will reflect these beliefs. And so will the nature of your relationships with other people.
In addition to everything which you are already doing so well in improving the success of your relationships with all of these many people in your life, your reading is instead of trying to guess what your future will be like offer you a method or way of getting at these beliefs, and turning them around to more positive ones using daily affirmations which are specially designed for your beliefs and for your personality and temperament.
At first affirming that men find you especially attractive and cannot wait to go out with you, or that your work colleague is doing these things because he or she has problems of their own and these have absolutely nothing to do with you will make you feel like you are only imagining or making out that these things are true. But over time these life affirming beliefs will slowly but surely replace the negative ones which were causing most of your relationship problems all along, without you knowing that they were.
Work backwards from your relationship experiences to discover what are your main negative unconscious beliefs about yourself. Once you have identified what they are, carefully design a series of them to change your relationship experiences for the better over time. Never use negatives in your affirmations.
Say I AM LOVABLE instead of saying I AM NOT UNLOVABLE.
Two negatives "not" and "unlovable" do not make a positive lovable to your unconscious mind.
Practice saying your personal affirmations on a daily basis, when you are lightly relaxed and quiet and alone. Try to say them at around the same time each day (saying them in bed is only likely to make you fall asleep which spoils their effect) for a maximum of 15 minutes only. Any more than that is a waste of time and energy.
Does this reading help, both with you looking for a soul mate or partner and also at work with this "difficult person, and perhaps reducing or removing the need for you to find another job now in a highly competitive job market, and possibly with another world recession just around the corner? Please let me know if I can be of any further practical assistance in helping you to better understand and use these insights to improve many of your relationships through daily positive affirmations.
L&L,
EoT
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