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I have been in a deep depression, not only because of my pain but also because of the betrayal of my former boss. I'm very honest and trusting person and would never believe that someone was intimidated enough to fire me illegally.
I feel haunted by this. I continue to trust everyone but that situation should never have happened.
Sometimes I look at my bottle of painkillers and think about taking all of them. But I know that if I can just separate myself from that episode, good things will come again.
It's been over 8 months now... and my future is in the hands of the judge for SSDI. I hate not having total control of my life. I'm very independent. Bugs the heck out of my husband though LOL.
But I do need hugs... and some guidance.