Please hug me

[karlenespellman]

Hi all,
I really need a hug. I will calm down, but to do that I have to vent .
I will do a short vent.
I volunteer. I do it for the kids. I work my rear off. A 60 hour a week non paid position. I get yelled at for things way out of my control. They could do it better. But they don't. I would say f$&^$$ it if it wasn't to benifit 150+ kids.
Why can't "adults" put aside their ego, powertripping, lives aside. UUGGHH

They say they will do all they can to help, but they don't. They hope you won't notice. I did. And when I calm down, I will let them know that I know.
They can't fire volunteers. I always do my best to help.
They brought this on with their "own" bad karma. I just hate that I have to work so hard so it doesn't affect the kiddos.
People tell me not to do it anymore. I have to. No one else will and there are 150+ kids needing this. At least I can proudly say,"I don't let my ego get in the way of the kids"!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks, I feel much better just typing this.
Lots of love to you all.
Thank you tourbi for asking.

[tourbi]

You are wonderful for giving so much for the kids!!! Be sure and give for you too.
I love you dear!!!
Keep being the wonderful you and I am so glad you vented.

[karlenespellman]

You are the best!!!!!!!!
I will, I just need to chill first.
I like haveing a place to "say"it, instead of doing by myself.
Lots of love
Karlene

[soul_flower]

Karlene you're such a wonderful,warm,caring person.....You do so much and you should be so proud of yourself for taking your time and energy and giving back.....I cant really offer any advice...I still feel that i am between adulthood and childhood lol.....But seriously good on you and i hope you sort this out...Sometimes adults can make things turn into something its not and that sh*ts me....Just smile,protect yourself from negativity and keep your mind on the kids......It will smoothe out.

Heres some *huggles* positive energy and all my love going to you.


Tamara :o)

[karlenespellman]

tamara, this is great advice! Your here for me.
I am proud, just frustrated.
A big hug to you.
Love ya lots.
Karlene

[tourbi]

Now that you have shifted a bunch of energy.

Sit down, get quiet, I think you are closer to that now.
Visualize what you are doing and the energy going to the kids.  Then see the work that others are doing, even the ones you are unhappy about, and see them moving their energy to the kids and everything going well for the kids.

Also, see healing energy for all concerned together.  
There are lessons for all to learn.  The healing can take place and lessons still be learned.

Just like we see what we want financially, we can do so for everything else.
Don't be manipulative, always ask for the highest purpose to be served for ALL concerned.

I know you, you are a powerful woman.  You are generous.
You are  capable.
You can passionate.
Turn that energy for you and the kids and you will pull everyone else along for the ride, then just make it fun.

[clover73]

Major hugs for you lady!!!!  I sent that message for you and you should be hearing something from P.C. soon.  Until then, just try to take a deep breath and realize that you can't fix it all right now.  Nothing you say or do it going to be some miraculous solution right now.  Just walk it off or loaf around in a chair and take the deep breath to calm down.  It will work out somehow.  It always does.  If it does make you feel better for the time being it's ok to go ahead and say f&*k it!!!  Just don't react on anything until you feel more calm and you can think straight.  It can wait for you.  HUGS!!!!  You KNOW how many people love you and think you are a wonderful person.  Hang in there.  You know where I am if ya need me!!!!!!  We can have the two ladies venting session again!!! hahaha lol

[karlenespellman]

Thanks tourbi and clover.
I will get there tomorrow. Not tonight.
I have to be the person that just does. I know it's wrong,
but it's where i'm at.
Lots of love to you for wanting to help.
I am just being selfish tonight.
I love you lots.
Karlene

[starsign20002000]

You are not being selfish.  It can be hard at times being a volunteer.   My husband and I are volunteers ourselves for 2 organisations.   It does make it hard when you are the only person doing it.  You are trying your best at the volunteering that is all that matters.  You are doing great keep up the great work.

[Molissa]

no advice, but lots of hugs and loving energy going to you.

[Marion]

lots of hugs and love Sis....
you know where I am if you need me.
Always available at the cafe for coffee  

Hugs
Marion

[Psychic Chef]

Hi Karlene
Time to take a breath and squeeze your hands together then release a few times. just shake it off.
What you do for the kids will reward you 10 fold every time you look into there eyes.
As for the rest of the people and i know who you mean, Karma is a vengeful elephant and they are all adults.
We as beings face our own choices and they will face theres good or bad.
Hugs and love Pete

[taraprincess]

sweetie here is a huge hug...much love and huggies

[kybunker]

Hi Karlene

Just a quick thought as I was sitting here reading your vent...

60 hours a week non paid, unappreciated..

You can come here, I've got a household of 6 people, several animals, Tons of work and It's just me fullfilling it for everyone.
So if you decide to move,, come here! I'll appreciate you!  :)

Let me know if this makes you smile!

Love to you
kelley

[karlenespellman]

Thank you Molissa, Star, Pete. Marion and taraprincess. This is why I love ya all so much.
You keep me grounded.
Kelley you have me laughing. thank you. Where do you live? Some days I might take you up.

My Good karma is coming around. Things are falling in place, and 2 b&^%$^hs appologized today.

Thank you all for helping me send out the positive energy.
Your all the best.

All my love to you.
Karlene