When the Pain Gets 2B 2 Much
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When the Pain Gets 2B 2 Much
I have a lot of medical issues and have applied for SSDI. The first two steps I was denied because they think even with my disabilities, an employer will accommodate me and I can work. After over 80 applications I have put out, I don't think it's going to happen.
I have been in a deep depression, not only because of my pain but also because of the betrayal of my former boss. I'm very honest and trusting person and would never believe that someone was intimidated enough to fire me illegally.
I feel haunted by this. I continue to trust everyone but that situation should never have happened.
Sometimes I look at my bottle of painkillers and think about taking all of them. But I know that if I can just separate myself from that episode, good things will come again.
It's been over 8 months now... and my future is in the hands of the judge for SSDI. I hate not having total control of my life. I'm very independent. Bugs the heck out of my husband though LOL.
But I do need hugs... and some guidance.
I have been in a deep depression, not only because of my pain but also because of the betrayal of my former boss. I'm very honest and trusting person and would never believe that someone was intimidated enough to fire me illegally.
I feel haunted by this. I continue to trust everyone but that situation should never have happened.
Sometimes I look at my bottle of painkillers and think about taking all of them. But I know that if I can just separate myself from that episode, good things will come again.
It's been over 8 months now... and my future is in the hands of the judge for SSDI. I hate not having total control of my life. I'm very independent. Bugs the heck out of my husband though LOL.
But I do need hugs... and some guidance.
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Hi Greekygranny,
I think you are a Virgo. I read the Virgo section of this forum, and all but the jelousy, and nit-picky fit me to a tee. Nowhere else has ever been this right on.
Anyway, I know about the control thing. I have to always be in control, or i get very depressed. If you have kids, killing yourself will never be an option, it would put them in your situation. You don't want that.
Most people in your life before, have disapointed you. How did you deal with it then? Think very hard. For some reason you gave your former boss control over your work. I know how trusting you are. I trust so much, that I'm strange. I get burned, but I still need to do this. This is who I am. I think you are too, or you wouldn't have needed this hug.
Deal honestly with your feelings of betrayal, don't think about ever killing yourself,( not a good option for ANYONE but you at that miniscule point of time), Bug your husband until you can't stop laughing. You have NO control over the SSDI judge, don't worry about it. Life is way to short. If the Judge doesn't rule in your favor, you are strong enough to figure out what you have to do. Won't be easy, but it is your way. YOU CAN DO THIS! BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. After all, you are the only one you have.
I have been where you are many times. My advice is very life learned. PM me if you would like to talk private. You are a GOOD soul. Don't give up.
Lots and lots of hugs. Hang in there, your the best.
Thank you for all you do. Kar
I think you are a Virgo. I read the Virgo section of this forum, and all but the jelousy, and nit-picky fit me to a tee. Nowhere else has ever been this right on.
Anyway, I know about the control thing. I have to always be in control, or i get very depressed. If you have kids, killing yourself will never be an option, it would put them in your situation. You don't want that.
Most people in your life before, have disapointed you. How did you deal with it then? Think very hard. For some reason you gave your former boss control over your work. I know how trusting you are. I trust so much, that I'm strange. I get burned, but I still need to do this. This is who I am. I think you are too, or you wouldn't have needed this hug.
Deal honestly with your feelings of betrayal, don't think about ever killing yourself,( not a good option for ANYONE but you at that miniscule point of time), Bug your husband until you can't stop laughing. You have NO control over the SSDI judge, don't worry about it. Life is way to short. If the Judge doesn't rule in your favor, you are strong enough to figure out what you have to do. Won't be easy, but it is your way. YOU CAN DO THIS! BELIEVE IN YOURSELF. After all, you are the only one you have.
I have been where you are many times. My advice is very life learned. PM me if you would like to talk private. You are a GOOD soul. Don't give up.
Lots and lots of hugs. Hang in there, your the best.
Thank you for all you do. Kar
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sweetie sending you some big n big n big hugs,n possitive energy,please take good care,and dont think negative,you have lots of good people that loves you,things will get better be blessed,i will have you in my prayers lluvia
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Many hugs to you. My aunt was in a similar situation with SSDI. It upsets me that former drug adicts ca get SSDI by claiming mental incompetence (I don't know if I spelled that right) as a result of their own poor judgement. And it doesn't take very long to get their apps approved. I will keep you in my prayers.
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Hello G Granny. I am new member. First I send you hugs. It seems that you are confirming all of your difficult times. Remember that we all have the capacity to attract or create our personal realities. The law of attraction is always in effect in our lives. We must be very careful of the things that we think. All thoughts maniefest into reality. We must all be very careful of what we allow or accept into our thoughts of reality. If we listen to the self talk that goes on in our minds and it is not benificial to us the sub-conscious mind starts to believe the negative self-talk. The sub-conscious then starts to act it out in our reality. Example If we say to ourselves that we are not smart, then our sub-conscious hears theses negative self instructions and after it is covinced that our conscious mind believes what it is saying it then acts as if we are not smart. We then maniefest stupidity into our reality. We all know people that say that they are clumsy or slow or lazy or unhappy or poor etc... These people soon become what they say. In short, be careful of the language that you use about yourself. Change your thoughts to conditions that you desire and your sub-conscious will follow your instructions once it is convinced your conscious mind believes. My entire life changed from not having enough to a life of great abundance once I learned to think of the things that I wanted and stopped thinking about the things that I did not want.This process takes a little practice. I can guarantee that once you practice this one simple rule of universal truth your life will change to those things that you really desire. Your life is in your thoughts.
God bless you
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God bless you
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It upsets me that former drug adicts ca get SSDI by claiming mental incompetence
Not that way in Massachusetts J & A. i have a niece who has applied for ssdi, she can not get any help because she was an addict (even though she was straight and yes was, she faught and faught but didn't get anywhere and gave in) but is fighting every day to stay straight. they don't think of it as an illness. she tries so hard.
I wish you luck on your venture the system S*&%$s but you need to stay strong. You are here on MB which means you have a place to go and get hugs
I wish you luck on your venture the system S*&%$s but you need to stay strong. You are here on MB which means you have a place to go and get hugs
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