*huge huggz back to all of you*
I know that nothing was intentional... but Sometimes people need to THINK
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before saying things... I will get over it and I have already very much... Thanks to all of you... I think that I am reasonable so I think that it was uncalled for... and I understand what was trying to be said... but I think that Everyone here should always make sure that they are being clear in how they express themselves... we don't have anything but our words... and I know that it effects me more than anyone else... because I am losing something special that I could have shared with someone I love... That is part of what makes me so upset... Everything was fine... until what was said upset me... I wasn't even sure about getting back on for a few days, but I know that I have people here who deserve better than that and better from me...
*sigh* words are very powerful... and sometimes I think that people don't understand how much hurt can come from miscommunication...
It is frustrating... I tried to explain, but apparently it didn't do any good... or if it did then it wasn't expressed...
I am feeling kinda numb from it all... and if it weren't for the respect that I have for this person... then I would have been much more irrational about it all together...
Somethings are different for me, and I get that... I know that I was probably being over sensitive...
But I wasn't arguing, I just wanted to understand something more clearly and felt like I was being Chastized for it... and then I felt like I was being told that this isn't real... I have many many people here that are my friends and even some who are like family to me... and THAT is what upset me...
I don't make friends really easy in the 'real' world... so everyone here is so precious to me... THAT is the only thing that really bothered me... and I am not going to get over it easy... and I feel like it should not have been said... (It really made me hurt and it made me cry... and that is NOT why I am here... I can get people in my life to do that to me just fine... This place was always so wonderful... and always made me happy... that is why I needed a hug... I need reassurance that I am not the only one that cares about others here... I have LOTS of issues with thinking that I am someone that others are capable of caring about... and it stems from people that I care about just stop talking to me.. for no reason... and don't even tell me good-bye... it sucks and I don't like it... and I am overly sensitive about it... (as you can tell from the four hundred pages I am writing right now) I will get over it... and be back to my normal self... but I feel like I had the rug ripped out from under me..
*sighs* thank you all for being here for me... and listening to me complain... I love you all very very much!!
Nyte