Sandi

[SandiLJ]

Hi, everyone!! I just wanted to let know that, I'm doing fine my ''d'' is going to be over in a few months YEA!!. I went through some things I don't regret, that I met my soon to ex for it was ment for our childern to be here! so let me give you an update, on oct.18 he moved out YES!!then. I applied for everything that wellfare had to offer me, in sept for 2 days we lived without electricty! knowing that our son has asthma & his machine is electric !I've got electric now, on sept 20 they cut off my gas I lived for a month & a half without gas. Now the gas is in my name now I now have gas !! on oct25 the night before our Daughter's 21 B-Day they repoed my van!!, this was my only means of transpo. Now I've been living without water for a month I've manged to get the gas,trash,phone,cable,internet in my name! I'm on pip with the gas sometime between Dec. & Jan I'll have ,the electric in my name as well!. I'm finally getting my food stamps!! my cash asst. is on hold just untill they can get a new birth certificte, for me so it will be sometime between Dec. & Jan. that I'll see that one. I'm getting everything that I have ask for execpt his job doesent cover ex spouces!, he turned in his keys yesterday! I'm alot better now than when all of this started. I've been blessed with goodfriends  & neighbors who have feed me & my familly now. I'm getting all of my water  from them as well as washing our clothes I get water for everything!. I'm doing the very best that I can to ensure that my childern are well taken care of during this time!!. I have a Boiller it requires water to heat for my home is steam heat, so I went out & bought electric heaters that look like raiders, they are doing a good job of kepting us warm!!. I'm going to school to be a medical billing & coding specialist.  I'm doing really good so far I've just completed my first three test, I got all A's I'm still wating for my test results, on test #4 I know that With Gods Help. I'll be able to make a good living doing this job, from my home on the comp. I'm not mad at him any more. I still cry sometimes that he just let me & our childern go, with out basic necessity's, like food, water, gas, electric, car & phone!!. Men & Women,please do not everlet your precious familly suffer like this. You might not get along with your spouce, just pay the bills & don't let your childern suffer any of this..!!!its not worth it at all!! But life does goes on & it does get better, It was allways me & the our kids anyway so it is his loss! it is very peaceful around here it has done our family good just to be able to laugh after the rain! I still feel loss, but as much as. I did every day gets better for me I have a good support from my family & friends. I know that this feeling someday will no longer be there it is beging to replaced by thank God, I'm going to free that makes me feel very happy that. I've survied without having a hard heart towards men!! well. I've got to go now my Christmas presents are coming on T hursday!! my Mom & Dad went out & bought me brand new applainces !!!! Have a very merry Christmas & New Year!!!    love SandiLJ