budo_rm wrote:Thank you for the quick reply,
Generally Venus feels more "watery" and soft unlike Durga which felt more intense and like fire. I like how Venus works on the heart and stimulates creativity.
It seems like my subconscious get stimulated by the Venusmantra. If this is too intense it kind of feels like my conscious mind gets flooded by subconscious influences. That's what i mean with a cloudy mind. And that creates some extra fear.
But if i recite moderatly it seems manageable.
I only do it in the morning now and sleep seems a little better. I also do a shorter version now: Om shum shukraya namaha. This seems to be less intense. Still, i still dream more frequently and it always very symbolic.
For example: "I am waiting with a friend for a guru at the train station, he doesn't arrive, there are some problems with his flight. Other people make fun of this and i get angry. My friend gets some drinks. Suddenly a person dressed like Vishnu sit next to me. He has a special energy. Suddenly i see his left arm is cut of, it looks like he has lepracy. He wants to embrace me but i don't want to get infected. My friend doesn't mind this."
Last time you said that everything was going to get better from may 2009. Did i understand this correctly? Because you say that things stay difficult until 2012.
Kind Regards
Hi budo_rm,
The Shukra mantra is very much suited for you for it will make
(1) your nature turns more positive slowly, but you have to pass 2009 for the effects to solidify the 'jung' in your self and extract it out.. which happens in 2009.
(2) It will help to open the doors to a better world, as much as your free will would/could allow.
You will be able to equip the world better after that.
I had mentioned before:=
"RishiRahul=Around May 2009 you will a change of personal and career environment. When it happens remember that you are not on the wrong track..... Carry on patiently. Wear a diamond if possible.. or Give more strength to Venus by its mantra..""Om Draang Dreeng Dreeng Drong sa shukraye Namah" . Chant it in a relaxed mood and with love so that it permeates in your soul........what your phobias dissappear slowly as confidence flows into you. See some results around May 2009... and more so increasingly. 2011 brings a culmination to these efforts.
Do not falter... do it and carry on with patience".
So do you understand the reason behind mentioning 2012, when your Jup - Jup-Ketu in Vimshottari will be over coupled with Pitricharajaraka Budh dasa -Mars antar and Sun antara in Atmakaraka Kendradhi Graha dasa.
Also check if a little bit of Guru mantra helps you to tide over soul level change involved better.
RishiRahul