![:)](./images/smilies/001.gif)
To summarize, how safe is automatic writing? I am asking because I have reasons for wanting to try automatic writing or some form of mediumship, but on the few occassions I tried I was actually told NOT to continue by the board.
This is the history (sorry it's lengthy)...From around 12-14, I was having reoccuring dreams about a man I had never met before, and began experimenting with automatic writing. I had numerous conversations with the same man, who gave me his full name (and to my regret, I have forgotten his last name, but I will call him Francois). I knew he was much older, though he often appeared young to me, he had blonde hair, was of French origin, and lived quite a while ago in a rural area. He knew he had died. I am unsure if he knew who I was, or if he had mistaken me for someone else.
Here's where it gets uncanny -- my stepmother went to a psychic party, and a psychic there actually approached her and told her at that time that a spirit named Francois who had a relationship with me, and that he was French. In addition, she was told he was an old man (I usually saw him as young, but sometimes he was elderly -- depends on the context of the interaction).
The details matched exactly. Now, I had never said a word of this to my stepmother, since we didn't get along well, so there's no way she could have known all of that. Anyhow, I always felt good around him, and it wasn't an issue, though he made my stepmother uncomfortable, and I know she tried contacting him numerous times.
At 17, I left my father's home on not-so-nice circumstances, and moved home with my mother. My mother, at this point, also began having repeated dreams that I married a blonde farmer. She also knew nothing about Francois.
Just before I started dating my first boyfriend, Francois told me he would not be interacting with me anymore because I had to go have my own life. At the time, I was not happy with this, but he began making interactions unpleasant, and so I gradually withdrew.
Fast forward 13 years! I'm now 30, living a happy life overseas, and all is great. But, I suddenly started thinking about Francois a lot. It's sort of concern, and I want to make sure he is doing alright.
I got the idea of looking his name up on the Social Security death index. I believe he died in NY, although the year is anyone's guess, but I figure it's worth a shot. Maybe if I can track down who he was, I might be able to help him or something, assuming he even wants that. The trouble is, I need his last name. I'm thinking mediumship is the way to get more information from him.
I believe he's somehow "gotten in contact" with me again, since my young daughter (who is uncannily gifted) told me there's a man that follows me, and she sees him if she sleeps in my bed and wakes up in the middle of the night. She was afraid of him in the beginning, but now seems to be fine with him.
I have not figured out how this all works, but I think he was somehow directed to me from somewhere else??? He doesn't seem as informed about my past 10 years or so, and my husband had nightmares for a little while when he started becoming more active, but now it seems fine (no, I haven't told him any of this).
So...okay, enough rambles! Advice on how to proceed? I am reading the mediumship info on this site, so I gather that's where to start, but what about automatic writing, spirit boards, etc? Is there any reason why my guide/s would be so against me using them?
I use tarot, and am quite comfortable with the cards, but they can't give the more detailed information I seek.