Seems I'm having a down night...or a down week. I'm feeling very depressed and alone. Though I know it's silly to say I'm alone when I have friends and a brother...however, it is what it is.
I'm finding it hard to reach out and only feel comfortable in my own space. My life isn't going at all how I had planned and I know I must release this idea...but I'm struggling.
I have recently lost a close friend, my work is draining me, I have just come out of a long-term relationship (7 years), I'm financially struggling, I need to get a second job (which the tax department will tax me 40% for...JOY) AND i can't see where I'm going to get the energy to do it. I feel so ALONE...and I HATE feeling this way...
And so, I have come here where I know in the past you guys have helped me before and it was a tremendous help to me at that time. I'm asking again, please help. Things just seem so hopeless at the moment. It's like...I'm losing everything in my life that I have worked so hard to attain...like, somehow, on some level I have to lose all I have for some greater purpose...and I have an idea of what that is, and I know innately to trust it...
But, it's so hard. My world is crumbling down around me and it seems all I can do is stand in the middle of it and watch it happen...ack, it's devastating...
Hugs would be awesome
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