I am from India. I have grown up in a family which had interests in Astrology, Palmistry and so on. I have had quite a normal, happy childhood. One thing I have always noticed about myself is-I tend to get toooooo serious about things and tooooo emotional, for no reason at all. Things deeply affect me. For eg.-I go to a party and see someone not finishing all the food on their plate, it will give me a sleepless night! So see, I know there is something wrong with me mentally, I just don't know how to stop being so serious and intense.
Anyway, that is not my problem. The thing is-I was in love once. And since I have already told you how deeply my heart gets affected, you can imagine how insanely I was in love. Things didn't work out and we broke up in 2008. He cheated on me. That sent me into depression and made me very introvert, something I am still struggling with.
However, all this while, I had someone by my side-my bestest friend on this planet. We met in August 2001 in High school, then we went to college together, then he went to navy, off to high seas for months together-but strangely enough even through all the distance, our relationship just grew stronger and stronger. Nothing romantic. But its unbelievable how close we have always been. No secrets, nothing, just been there for each other. Meeting after 6 months, felt like no time had passed. You get the drift?
But for past 10 months or so, we have had a lot of arguments. We were both sworn vegetarians, teetotalers and suddenly he has started drinking, eating everything under the sun, kinda became angrier and so on. So we had a few arguments over these and he brushed these off as related to job stress. Anyway, our relationship continued as before, with minor glitches ofcourse. We both have huge egos and we have had our share of arguments but eventually we always talk and sort out our problems. At some level, we always sense that we belong together. Being together comes easy and we are very comfortable together.
Now on 22nd October 2012 he said that he has met someone who he thinks could be his life partner. However, he is also confused because somehow, I guess at the back of our minds, we always thought we would end up together. And it has disturbed me deeply. I have never been serious about marriage. In fact I always thought that marriage is kinda constricting. But now, the mere thought that he could marry someone else is tearing me apart. But I don't want to say anything reckless unless I am absolutely sure.
On one hand, it feels like I will actually die if he gets married to someone else. It feels like I met my soulmate and on the other, what if he is better off with this other girl? I don't want him to be unhappy. What if he is not my soulmate-but even thinking this gives me extreme pain. What if I am just confusing a decade of togetherness for love?
I know that astrology is just a tool and if 2 people want to be in a relationship they need to work on it, the planets are not going to do anything. I also know I am kinda melodramatic and too sensitive while he is a proud, independent person. We both are stubborn and fight over trivial matters. We both love our independence and don't want to be stifled. It is just that, at some level, inspite everything, something inside me says that we should be together. Can our charts show anything about this feeling-are we soulmates? Can this work if we really want it to? Or is it one of those impossible alliances?
I need answers. Can you help me Please? Its do or die for me. I have attached our natal, synastry, composite charts alongside.
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